without meaning

I’m thinking about how meaningless relationships have become nowadays. I am so tired. I am so tired of knowing so many details about lives of people who could go months without speaking to me. I’m tired of thinking a connection has been established and will be nurtured, just to realize you’re meaningless to them.

I’m tired of constantly being told people haven’t met someone like me, simply because I listen and genuinely care about their lives, struggles, and what makes them who they are. When was the last time someone asked you how you were and questioned you when you said “fine”?

And how many people do you know that preach about being there for people, but don’t practice what they preach?

Where is meaning now? How are any of us supposed to be fulfilled when the extent of our connections is through “streaks” or “likes”?

I can count on one hand how many people I feel deeply connected to, and I am so thankful for them. I am just so done with the people who make me feel meaningless.

I think this needs to be another new beginning, of knowing meaningful relationships are the ones that need to last, and that relationships that drain us, are never worth it.

Easier said than done, I know, and not every relationship has to be extremely deep, but I am so done with the people who so obviously don’t care about others. Ask each other. Be genuine. Be curious! Care. Please just nurture relationships, be there for your friends, your acquaintances, and anyone who seems like they need a pick me up. It is so much more important than we realize.